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  For Coley, Jack, Max, and Bones

  CONTENTS

  Title Page

  Copyright Notice

  Dedication

  Part One

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Part Two

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Part Three

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Acknowledgments

  Copyright

  PART ONE

  1

  The fire and the mailman, story of their life. It’s all they ever talk about. He wishes it would end. But now it’s in the news again—Tonight, live at five—as if he needs to be reminded how it happened, who’s to blame.

  Billy walks the lots between his place and the Carmichaels’, where demolition crews have razed the two unsalvageable homes, hauling the wreckage off in dump trucks and leaving a gap, like knocked-out teeth, in the middle of the block. He smells the fire all the time, ashy in the sun, murky in the rain, and though the ground is level and clear where the basements have been filled, he can’t take a step without discovering a piece of what was there. A curved shard of glass. A melted hairbrush. Nothing worth picking up but Billy always checks. The lawn is scorched dead along the sidewalk as if a giant magnifying glass had focused on the ground, burning two crisp holes with terrible precision. Arcadia Street has been desolately quiet ever since, and with the vacant lots affording a view of the woodland just behind the yards, the cul-de-sac feels closer to wilderness than any of the blocks between here and the center of town.

  A trailer appeared today while Billy was out. Dull white and unattached to any vehicle, it’s twenty feet long and planted at the back of the Bailey property, right against the trees but glowing in the late-day sun. He had watched Sam Bailey, eerie in the half-light of dawn, enter the woods several days ago and stay there, out of sight and doing God knows what, for as long as Billy could wait before he had to go to work.

  In the mornings, he’s still surprised to look outside and see the Carmichaels’ house instead of the Finns’. Just the other night he spotted Peg Carmichael in her bathroom, drying her hair like nobody could see her—fifteen minutes wearing nothing but a towel. It’s been the only real perk of a bad situation. He and Sheri draw the blinds after dark. With Nan and Joan Finn they never had to. The Finns were old, it didn’t matter, but he doesn’t need Bob Carmichael eyeballing Sheri, the way she walks around the kitchen underdressed. Or rather partway dressed, like she doesn’t want to bother, wearing a big T-shirt without pants, too long to show any thigh, or the brown bathrobe she got ten years ago from her first husband.

  “It’s my favorite robe,” Sheri tells Billy, case closed.

  Not that Bob Carmichael strikes him as a peeper. He’s a good guy, Billy likes him, low-key and easy to talk to. A weird fit for Peg. Bob’s male-pattern bald and wears a lot of plaid shirts, and when he isn’t playing ball with his two sons or working at the bank, he’s usually wandering around, fixing old bikes in the yard and waving to every neighbor he sees. Peg’s the CEO and principal broker of Carmichael Realty Company and looks it: a pantsuit-wearing woman who starts her day with a six-mile run and doesn’t slow down until bedtime. She drives an Audi, whisks the kids from school to Little League and back, is rarely without her business portfolio, and treats Billy like a man who ought to be renting. He looked her up online and most of her listings weren’t that hot, only one above $300,000. Their own house is only slightly better than Billy and Sheri’s, but he guesses with the kids, the Audi, Peg’s wardrobe, and Bob’s mid-level bank job, Arcadia Street is the best that they can manage.

  Peg pulls up and Billy walks over. It’s Saturday afternoon but she’s dressed like it’s early Monday morning. She hops out without acknowledging he’s there, opens the back door, and bends into the car to get a grocery bag. All her running’s paid off. He stares the whole way over, watching when her back foot hovers off the ground.

  “Need a hand?”

  Peg shuts the door with her hip and looks him in the face. He’s had a lazy eye since birth; it doesn’t give him trouble but it’s there in conversations.

  “How’s the roof coming along?” Billy asks.

  Peg groans. The Carmichaels’ southern exterior took the brunt of the damage. They had to replace the siding and four windows, and now a portion of the roof needs work, more than they anticipated. Billy’s had similar woes, except that being downwind, he lost the siding and the underlying wall, and part of his roof actually collapsed. He’s had the roof repaired and the wall rebuilt. The rest of it he plans to do himself. He had a list a mile long before the fire and can’t get ahead, but a lot of his insurance went to preexisting debts, and labor costs are ludicrous. Just ask Peg.

  “We’re getting another estimate,” she says. “It never ends. Look at this place.” She scowls at the footprints of the two missing homes. “They could have at least seeded grass.”

  “I guess one of us could,” Billy says.

  “Do you know how expensive grass seed is?”

  She looks at him and smiles, remembering he works at True Value.

  “They ought to make Cooper do it,” Billy says.

  “He ought to be in jail.”

  “It was an accident.”

  “If I accidentally hit you with my car,” Peg says, “wouldn’t you still be mad?”

  Billy laughs at her aggression, grinning at her pearls and buttoned-up collar.

  “The big hero,” Peg continues. “I talked to Joan Finn. She couldn’t stop praising him. He burns their house down, offers them a guest room, snap, he’s a saint. I wonder what he offered Sam Bailey.”

  “He called me up and offered to lend a hand with any repairs,” Billy says. “I said thanks, we didn’t need help.”

  “You thanked him?”

  “I said it with a tone.”

  Peg rolls her eyes and keeps them up and off Billy.

  “He called me, too. My lawyer said I shouldn’t speak to him, but honestly,” she says, “I couldn’t stop myself. I mean the sheer audacity … as if apologizing makes it better for us!”

  “How’s your lawsuit moving?”

  “Don’t even get me started. Suing a government agency’s like a suing a glacier. Even with a settlement it might take … what is that?”

  She’s finally seen the trailer in the Baileys’ backyard.

  “I guess it’s Sam’s,” Billy says. “He must be planning to rebuild.”

  “No one told me.”

  “I saw him in the woods the other morning.”

  “Doing what?”

  Billy shrugs, and that’s about all Peg can stand by the look she fires back, like it’s him who stuck a secondhand trailer in the yard.

  “I’ve got to get this ice cream inside,” she announces.

  He can see through the shopping bag: celery
, eggplant, bottle of juice. She leaves him there without saying goodbye and he watches her up the steps and into her house, where the screen door hisses on its pressurized tubes.

  Billy walks across the lot, crackling over something so charred it’s unrecognizable. TV remote? The sole of a shoe? He strolls around back and sizes up the trailer but it’s nondescript in every way; even the dents and discoloration are generic. The Baileys’ garden is still here, growing on its own, and Billy sees that the strawberry plants have already borne fruit. He checks to see if anyone’s around and picks a handful. No sense leaving them to rot. He cuts across the Finns’ and walks into his kitchen, where he puts the berries in a colander and hears Sheri coming downstairs, finally out of her nap. She works late at the diner Friday nights and sleeps past noon every Saturday, and now she shuffles into the kitchen wearing yesterday’s blouse. There’s a gravy stain right down the middle of her stomach. She hasn’t showered or brushed, her hair’s flat on one side, and she doesn’t say “Hey” or acknowledge him at all. She finds the coffee pot empty and her face gets pissy, like every pot in America ought to be nonstop full, and then she dumps the basket into the trash, drizzling out a thin line of coffee on the floor.

  “I’ve got to be out of here in thirty.”

  “I didn’t want to wake you,” Billy says.

  He grabs a sponge and cleans the coffee off the floor. Sheri stands there waiting with a filter, sighing that she can’t get around him to the counter.

  “Beep,” she says, and Billy moves aside.

  He sees the garbage can, coffee grounds oozing down the side, and he’s reminded of the fire-hose water and the soot. The house still stinks—smoke in the walls, in the mattress, in the ground outside, and not just wood smoke, either. Burnt tar. Melted siding. A headache stink that follows him around, in his clothing and his nose. He even smells it on Sheri.

  “I talked to Peg,” he says. “Henry Cooper called her, too.”

  “Good for Henry Cooper,” Sheri mutters.

  “Yeah, the big hero. Like apologizing makes it any better.”

  “Why wouldn’t it?”

  “If I didn’t mean to punch you in the face, wouldn’t you still be mad? He’s sitting home getting paid, for Christ’s sake. Meanwhile look at us. Look at how we’re living.”

  “At least you still have a wife,” Sheri says.

  She won’t stop harping on the fact.

  “I got you something,” Billy says, holding out the berries.

  “Where’d you get those?”

  “From the Baileys’ backyard.”

  “Ew, creepy,” Sheri says, pushing them away, and then she goes upstairs to get dressed without remembering her coffee.

  Billy starts the pot and walks out back, where he stands with the colander and tries to spot Peg through one of her brand-new windows. The berries are redder than anything he’s seen this spring, adorable and plump, like a basketful of hearts. He thinks of Henry Cooper when he pops one into his mouth, but it’s sour and he spits it out bloody on the ground.

  2

  The grand jury had finally been impaneled early this week—thirty-two days after the fire—to decide upon the case of Henry Cooper’s criminal indictment. The fire marshal, an investigator, and the elderly sisters, Nan and Joan Finn, had each given their testimony, but in spite of his eagerness to face the jury, Henry himself had been repeatedly dissuaded from appearing.

  “It can’t help,” his lawyer said. “They aren’t looking for remorse. They’re looking for the slightest little evidence of crime.”

  “Doesn’t hiding look bad?” Henry asked.

  “They look at elements of guilt. The fewer elements the better. I advise you not to go.”

  Henry takes a shower now, starting out cold and dialing up to hot, even though he’s barely broken a sweat today, and not the kind of sweat he’d get delivering mail. The soap is cucumber scent and has a few of Ava’s hairs pressed into the soft white layer on the bottom. He lathers up and hums a jingle—Ajax … Stronger than dirt!—but immediately quits and bumps his head against the wall. The sound is echoey and hollow—one, two, three—and he stops this, too, so Ava doesn’t hear.

  “Are you all right?” she calls, muffled through the door.

  “I’m okay!” Henry says.

  He steps out, pouring water onto the floor, and pauses with his face in the fogged-out mirror.

  Wingnut wags and licks Henry’s toes. He’s a plain brown mutt, fifty pounds and five years old, with a hound’s bassoony bark and a long crooked tail—the kind of glad, generic dog kids doodle when they’re four. Henry moves him off but then apologizes, summoning him back to pat his rump. He hangs the towel on the curtain rod, pees, and breaks wind. He wipes the splatter off the rim with a ball of toilet paper, lowers the seat, and forgets to flush, his mind racing ahead to brushing his teeth and talking with Ava, who’s waiting out in the bedroom, folding laundry after a full day of work.

  Flashes of the fire happen all the time, triggered by the plainest, most arbitrary things: the backs of Ava’s knees, freshly brewed coffee. Memories of smoke, red and white lights out the corner of his eye. A body on fire and his sweater in the hedge. He remembers things he didn’t even see, like now, when he’s wiping off the mirror and imagines Laura Bailey shaking out her hair before she went to bed.

  He pops a lid and takes his heart meds—Ava’s sure to ask—though really he’s been fine since the stent last summer. He opens the door and walks out naked, Wingnut padding at his heels, the two of them damp with steam and sniffing the cooler air.

  Henry’s forty-five years old, short and powerfully built, with forearms bigger than some men’s calves and a paunch that makes him grand instead of flabby. His walrus mustache crinkles when he grins; he wipes it, top to bottom, watching Ava fold a sheet. She spreads her arms and snaps the cotton tight across her bosom. Any other month he’d have hugged her on the spot, wrapped her in the sheet, and bounced her on the bed. But the Finns are downstairs and so he helps her with the laundry, staring at the wall instead of what he’s doing. He folds the same towel twice and even then it’s unacceptable. Ava picks it up without a word and does it right. He lifts a pair of boxers from the heap and puts them on, tipping most of the pile off the mattress with a flump.

  He lunges for the clothes and jabs her in the ribs.

  “Sorry! Shoot—I’m sorry, Av. I didn’t mean to get you there.”

  “Sit,” she says, blowing up her bangs. “Let me do this.”

  He watches her. She’s amply built, proud of her hips and breasts, and unafraid of wearing bathing suits. Her hands are like a milkmaid’s, buttery and strong. She’s a lab tech and Henry often views her as a nurse. He’s seen her with a needle in a vein, all precision, but she’s really at her best when she’s tightening a tourniquet.

  He sits and dips the bed. Ava stabilizes towels. He stands again and rearranges pictures on the dresser. Wing’s at his heels, certain he can help. Henry hasn’t worked his postal route in a month, the longest stretch of unemployment he’s endured since the age of sixteen. They’ve suspended him with pay, though it may as well be jail, and he would get another job but Ava’s certain he’d regret it.

  “It’s all you know,” she says. “You’d have to work retail and stand all day.”

  “I could stand all week.”

  “You can’t stand still,” Ava tells him, and she’s right. He’s pacing back and forth even as they talk. “They’ll reinstate you,” she insists. “They can’t fire an employee with a single black mark on his record.”

  “It’s a big mark.”

  “It was an accident,” she says. “A terrible, mind-bogglingly stupid accident, but after twenty-one years they owe you better. Thank God for unions.”

  The union steward from the National Association of Letter Carriers was with him during the USPS disciplinary hearing, and although the fire occurred because of a broken code, he’s kept his job and is, in fact, liable to get his route back after months of
union counterpressure.

  Now today. Now the jury. Public opinion had swung in Henry’s favor from the get-go, cameras having caught him at the scene, the sight of a crying mailman touching some sentimental nerve. The Finns were interviewed on the evening news, Nan poised amid the ruins, Joan pitiful and tearstruck, the first of many to commend him for his quick-thinking rescue. People pitied the Finns and Henry, too, sorry for the tragedy, sorry for it all, absolving him in ways he couldn’t understand. The district attorney took it easy and the jury no-billed the case.

  “It means you’re clear,” the lawyer told him on the phone this afternoon. “No trial.”

  “That’s it?”

  “That’s it,” the lawyer said, and Henry closed his eyes, barely holding the receiver.

  He was advised against contacting anyone from Arcadia Street, but Henry took his chances and reached out to everyone. The Finns had been a no-brainer. Their insurance covered hotel expenses, but Henry and Ava agreed they needed an interim home instead of anonymous lodgings, and Nan and Joan accepted the offered guest room the very night of the fire. Henry’s gotten used to the faster-emptying fridge, the public radio, the smell of medicated lotion, and the necessity—learned the hard way—of putting on pants before he saunters through the kitchen. He isn’t used to tears, though, and Joan’s been getting in a handful of serious cries every day for a month. Nan, on the other hand, has yet to cry once. They’re weirdly good to Henry—Joan appreciative and childlike, Nan ironclad but temperate—as if he rescued them from something that he hadn’t been the cause of.

  Joan and Ava get along, comfortably imbalanced—a helpless little lady and the woman of the house. Nan and Ava, on the other hand, bristled from the start. They’re electrically polite, vying for dominion, Nan asserting her rights within the boundaries of decorum, Ava mastering her home with limits and concessions. This morning they offered each other first use of the washing machine with so much crackling generosity that Wing tucked tail and hid beneath a table. Henry senses it whenever he walks up- or downstairs, right around step number eight, the invisible threshold between Ava’s realm and Nan’s.